Tuesday, 9 April 2002

Not Ordinary


I was trying to clean up my stuff the other day and found some old floppy discs stored in a shoe box. I rushed to the nearest internet cafe to check if the discs are still readable and to my luck, I have saved some archives of my thoughts and this is one of them.. expect more to come! :-)  -posted 02 June 2010

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Written:  09 April 2002
One of  those busy days while I’m in a bus on my way home, I witnessed love in it’s simplest sense. I am deeply touched and I suddenly realized how much simplicity is worth as long as there is love in our hearts.

It was the Annex stop-over at SM West, North EDSA when this certain couple got up the same bus I was riding on. They were not the usual commuter, I could say, and they’re not ordinary. They have with them, I think, their 2-year old boy.

They’re not ordinary. Why? Because they’re not in the usual jeans & shirts or the casual office attire, they don’t have bags or organizers or portfolio’s, they don’t have cellphones in their hands or in their pocket, the guy is not in his shoes & the girl is not in the common slip-ons most ladies wear these times and they don’t have plastic bags from the department store. All they have was each other and their little boy.

Why such curiosity that took my interest? Because they’re out of the ordinary. And it was a pleasure for me to watch them for a few minutes and out of luck, yes it’s luck, I think – that they settled near my seat in the aisle. They were standing at first because  the bus was already full and after a while, the girl got her seat on the opposite side on my row.

The girl could just be in her teens, maybe around 17  or 18. She’s got  a tan-complexion, maybe 5’1” or less, no make-ups, not even a powder or a lip gloss.  Her hair falls just below the ears and clipped at one side. She’s wearing an ordinary “pambahay dress” with thin straps and with a length one-inch above her knees and plain rubberized slippers, not sandals but slippers. There was innocence in her face and there wasn’t even a slight trace of any worry on her. She looks fragile but it was obvious that she’s taken care of by the boy she’s with. The way she looks at her little boy reflects her love & warmth. I could feel just by looking at her, that she is a good mother.

The boy was also too young to shoulder  such  responsibility.  He’s just on a plain white sando and a denim purontong and  also on his rubber slippers.   His built reflects hardwork. If  I will judge him with my bare sight – there is something that tells me this boy would do everything to raise his family and he’ll make a good provider.

Their simplicity moved me. They don’t rush like all the other passengers who’s faces are in a frown because of the traffic. There is no cellphone to divert their attention to. There is no wristwatch to tie them with time. There is peace within themselves which I can  see through by just looking at them.

The thought is really touching.  I wonder how our lives could be so complicated and all when we can slow down a bit, look inside our hearts and create love in its simplest form.

They’re not ordinary because there is something special within them. It is the love in their hearts that makes them out of the ordinary. It is simple love. Special love.

How sweet their sleep… how happy their hearts.

All because of  a simple, yet special love.

Sunday, 10 January 1999

Quoting Myself

"MEANT means it simply has to happen no matter what boundaries in time and space would ever be present as a barrier. It is an uncontrollable force that can be interferred by nothing and no one. In the right place and in the right time, even out of this world and not of this lifetime; there will come a time where two souls will come to meet - someday, somewhere.. and they’d know that they are “meant” to be."

Thursday, 4 December 1997

Crizanne Mae


Witnessed by the morning sun right after dawn
A picture of beauty beyond comparison
One gentle cry created a lullabye, a song
Joy of my heart and pride of my life… My Newborn.

Born out of love from two hearts that united then
A dream once caressed in playful fantasies, a gem
Now, a reality dressed in charm and grace
To grow in meekness and modesty, respect and chaste… My Princess.

Beneath every endeavor surpassed all throughout
An inspiration to lighten up the burden of heart
To impart warmth in the cold, dark night
With subtle touch, you will grow in love… My Baby.

Two lost souls have knotted before you came
A home where two hearts forever will stay
Friendship to rule and love to reign
Triumphs and hardships will be dealt fair… My Friend.

Listen and hear my heart  whisper your name
You’ll never be lost, He will guide your way
All through your life – as endless as forever
My love will flow unceasingly there…

From my heart to yours… from today till forever –
“I Love You, Crizanne Mae.”

Because of love you were born… and through love you will live.

Wednesday, 18 June 1997

Shadows

Barefooted soul comes at the risk of the dawn
Wandering through images of what the morning sun borne
Fleets of hope marveled then gently had gone
The wind above southeast had flown.
 
Regretful of romance that came halfway then
Memories drawn are but silhouettes of the past
No more looking back for it would just hurt
Second chances have all been gone.
 
Dreams had flown through the horizon
Every little wish had fell from the skies
The wounds strengthened the innocence of heart
And no place for blame was ever known.
 
Yesterday had gone at the rise of the sun
Laughters have all been heard; tears have all been poured
Everything that matters are now shadows where I stand
Not a single pain remains to hold me back.

Sunday, 17 March 1996

An Ode To An Artist

*Composed for a good friend who discovered my artistic 'talent' back in college days. 

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In deep silence,
Voices taunts your ears -
You hear what they cannot hear..
In the darkest shade,
Colours flows and blends -
You see what they cannot see..
One chaotic world we live in -
A paradise in your eyes
Music and color embraces your soul..
Feet dancing, voices singing..
Do, re, mi tunes on air
A guitar string's plucked
Better get your sticks
And bang up a drum.
You can walk over the rainbow,
Your mind wander beyond the clouds
No, you aren't living in dreams
For your feet lies flat on the ground.
A leaf fall, birds hum a song
Pick a pen and write a poem
Few lines may come before dawn
Tomorrow's memories are born.
Melancholy is a companion
There lies in you -
A great power of imagination.
Tears might not show the hurt,
And a smile couldn't mean you're glad..
They laugh at you at times
They just don't understand why..
The artist in you breaks out -
And that's what I admire in you
No doubt.
Look at the work of your hands -
You are gifted, stand proud..
But never ever forget the Lord above.
Now, as you face your crossroad ahead -
Grab a brush.. paint a canvas,
And create a masterpiece -
Out of your life.



Thursday, 29 February 1996

Sonnet

Silhouettes danced where the wind pleases
I vowed – melancholies on my head
Shadows waved on me
There’s nowhere to find gaiety
Butterflies somersaulted inside
A treacherous smile had cried
Soothsay’s nothing to tell
I bid goodbye to the day
The night seemed too long
There goes a lonely, drawling tone
Tears caressed my cheek
As two hearts unite, mine bleeds
One solitary world that is –
I’d traverse without you near.

Wednesday, 28 February 1996

Nightmare

The wind ungently touched me
Without words… nor signs
I shivered in cold
Yet, there’s no one I can hold
My eyes are too blind to see-
Anything in the dark…
It was night.
I’m in fear and I’m lost
There’s nowhere to run
And I stumbled alone.
A deafening silence covered my ears.
I closed my eyes.
The darkness embraced me.
Tears kissed my face.
I shouted but no one hears.
I’m so afraid.
And yet no one cares.