Random Thoughts

Time changes things.
It changes people.
It changes how we think and how we see things.
It changes the way we think.
It changes a little bit or much of what we are.

I love you then. I love you still.
But the time in between then and now have done so much..
To change how I am.

I love you then and with just a word from you -
I can leave my world and run away in your arms.
I love you still but I have my own life to live now.
Without you.

Un-Inked

It has been sometime since I’ve last been here. The days had been really busy for me in the past months and I could not really find time to write. There had been thoughts, of course, of things that I wanted to put in words but they’ve just flewn out of my mind.

I’ve been pre-occupied with work and working out. No guys. No dates. No extra co-curriculars.

It’s not that I am really loaded with work in the office but I am maximizing my time to put everything in order until I found out that I am deeply submerged with the system I myself created. I cannot even find time to open Facebook on my desktop!

In the evening, after I got home, I would rush to fix my dinner before 7 to be able to do my walking-jogging routine at 8 and be under the stars ‘til 9. The pleasure comes from the beat waves on my ears on a full hour and the trust that I am doing such for my health and to get fit.

But well, writing would always be one of the few ‘love’s-of-my-life’ and my life will never be complete without it. Weaving my thoughts is the most pleasurable thing for me to do after a day’s work or when I’m seeing the sun set on the horizon or when I would step on the beach sands with my naked feet.

Should write soon.

Random Thoughts

Had it ever happened to you when you wanted to stop thinking but your mind couldn’t? When you’re so confused and could not decide what to do or where to go? When you know that there shouldn’t be questions like these but still you keep on asking yourself? When the only thing for you to do is to rest your body, close your eyes and sleep?

But you couldn’t.

And you lose precious hours of sleep and there is nothing else to look forward to but one drowsy day ahead.

You keep on thinking.. hard. As if it could change what you know is certain to happen.

Maybe I should stop. And maybe I should get some sleep.


When the only thing left to do is to let go.

Random Thoughts

I am threading the road from St. Mary's Church, still wondering what could be ahead. To my left is the Metro construction.. to my right lines a few thirsty palm trees standing in the desert sand. People had gone ahead. I am walking down the Church Street heading to the nearest bus stop. Warm humid night of August. It was peaceful here. A lot more peaceful than my mind.

Random Thoughts

HAVE YOU EVER BEEN IN LOVE?

by Rose Walker

Have you even been in love? Horrible, isn't it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens your heart and it means someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses. You build up this whole armor, for years, so nothing can hurt you - until one person, no different from any other, wanders into your life one day...

You give them a piece of you. They don't ask for it. They do something like kiss you, or smile at you, and then your life isn't your own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so a simple phrase like "maybe we should just be friends" or "how very perceptive" turns into a glass splinter working its way directly into your heart.

It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It's a soul-hurt.. a body-hurt.. a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain.

A man who becomes conscious of the responsibility he bears toward a human being who affectionately waits for him, or to an unfinished work, will never be able to throw away his life. He knows the "why" for his existence, and will be able to bear almost any "how."

Random Thoughts

Sometimes we meet people, make friends, love them.. but most of them doesn’t stay. We could only wonder what the universe has in store if they stayed, and if they did, maybe we wouldn’t come across the path of the others we met after those who left. I always ponder on how each of the people that we meet changes our lives, alters our plans and brings us to a new horizon of life in which we should journey on. Don’t you think it’s really interesting to know the reason why we meet the people in our lives? Well, of course it is. But the sad news is, we cannot really find the answers until we have already crossed the bridge. But it keeps us alive and wanting and breathing each moment of our lives.

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I draw a line, create a circle and fill the blank space with colors. I would define a curve and illuminate objects, bringing life to an empty canvass and please my very eyes. But does it pleases my heart?

When you smile, when you laugh, when I see you happy – I feel like an angel touching you. When you are sad and crying - I am no less than a comic figure without a heart, without a soul.

Random Thoughts

Have you ever had a moment in your life when you felt so alone without no one to love and no one to love you back?  Yes, you could be going out and dating people of the opposite sex but meeting someone who’s worth loving and who would love you back in return may be scarce, if not none. One book author have said, “God would never create your soulmate if you will not meet him.”  Does it mean that there’s one for each of us?