See You Soon

I can't seem to forget the last time we've spent together and it's amazing how the moments are still so vivid in my memory. I can still tell exactly how you look that morning, what you're wearing, how you sat on the couch as you drink your coffee as you run thru your emails, how you greeted and kissed me, how I cuddled beside you on the couch...

The last words you told me was "See you soon."

I never ever though that what you really mean was Goodbye.

2012

When I watched the 2012 last year, it was no more than a movie to me. I have never thought of the scenes again. After all, it's just a movie created by the minds of those people whose imagination run hundredths of miles before we can think of things in ours. They create. We watch. Their mission is to entertain us and if the movie gets sold out in the box office with people walking out completely amazed with the storyline and the effects - then it spells success to its creators.

But a year later, everybody's still talking about 2012. Not the movie per se but the coming of the year 2012 which will be next year.

The endless talks about 2012 leaves me baffled. Should I thought about it seriously when I could not contain all the images in my human mind whenever I would hear stories, read articles or see videos about the coming of the so-called ''end of the world''?

Though I do not want it to disturb me from the things I'm busy with everyday, I could not deny that a part of my mind hungers for knowledge and it is wanting to be fed with information about what's coming ahead. Some might call it curiosity to justify fear or to establish knowledge that would not be of any use when the doomsday come.

When the 9.0 magnitude earthquake hit Japan last Friday (11 March 2011) and tsunamis happen, I was shaken from my bed in the morning when the news greeted my face way before my cup of coffee. It was devastating and I was in great shock.

It was so easy to wash away Earth. From the video footages shown, cars and ships and houses were just flooded away to nowhere.. think about the people! It was only 10 minutes that I arise from sleep and I stood there in front of the television  and I was frozen. The only thought I have in mind is, ''What's happening on Earth?''

The deadline was set on 21st December 2012. They keep on saying that it will be the end of the world. It will be the date when the earth will come to its extinction. It is where the Mayan Calendar ends, as well as the I Ching. It is also said in the Prophecies of Nostradamus and the Merlins. And then there's the Planet X called 'Nibiru' which, according to sources, will hit Earth on the same date. There were also the shifts between the North & the South Poles which will cause horrifying  disasters of unknown proportions. Imagine Earth rotating in the opposite direction!

Simply put but still very hard to translate into words and imagine the unimaginable - the bottomline of what this tells us is that there will be a complete destruction of the world. For those who will be able to survive, we cannot really say that they will be lucky that they'll survive because the question then might be - ''How will you survive after surviving the end of the world?''

*All these are opinions of the author based on general media. This is not for the purpose of spreading information which do not have any basis or documented facts. References are online articles and videos. You are free to comment below if you wish to.

After the March 11, 2011 9.0 magnitude earthquake in Japan, continuous aftershocks are being felt with the average magnitude of 4.5 - 5 and its even reaching to 6 in frequencies of minutes, counting to more than 20 quakes a day.

You can see the real-time list at:
http://earthquake.usgs.gov/earthquakes/recenteqsww/Quakes/quakes_all.html

Never the Same

I looked at the sky and I remember -
How looking in your eyes sends me to a world I've never known..
How watching your lips smile lifts me up to the heavens..
How feeling your touch envelopes me into a space only you & I exists..
And how everything would never ever be the same.

I could have lost you but not the memories..
I would always be glad I have them
To keep and to hold close -
I will never ever be the same.

Of all the things I want to remember..
It would be the moments when you & me are together..
And I would travel back thru time -
To get into that moment when I first looked into your eyes.

*Originally written on 22 November 2010.

Hello, Diana!

Suppose you're dating a guy or let's just say that you occassionally goes out with one guy (and one guy only!). You're his girlfriend when you two are together but during the rest of the days of the month, you really doesn't care whether he calls you or not. You don't consider him a boyfriend but you find him nice and you always say 'Yes' whenever he invites you out.

You feel so comfortable and safe around him but you never demanded him to be around all the time.

It was all going okay until one time at 3 in the morning, you were awakened by his text message that says,

"Hello Diana. I was sleeping all night and wasn't able to text you back.

I wish you sweet dreams.  Kisses, Mi Amore."

Thug!

You sent him a sweet text message last night before you went to sleep because out of the blue, you thought about him. And he replied to you at the wee hours of the morning with a message like that.

What could be wrong with his reply? It was sweet enough to come from a guy.

But your name's not Diana! And it's nowhere near Diana!

What would you feel when something like that will wake you up from your precious sleep?

Then after a few seconds, there comes another text from him in your Inbox saying that he's still dizzy from his sleep and he mistyped your name.

You did not really expect since day 1 that you're the only one he's seeing. Definitely not and given the fact that you don't really consider yourself to be in a relationship with him.

If I were you, I'll send him a message back saying,  ''It's okay, Christian. We all make typographical errors sometimes especially when we're half awake :-)'', when his name is Ylio.

Just Maybe..

It feels strange knowing you'd soon be far

I don't wanna say goodbye but goodnight

And maybe, just maybe -

'Until next time' is just alright...

Thought we're not sure if we'll cross our paths again

Maybe one day, someday, who knows?

Serendipity may get in our way.

For now, I'll whisper my prayers

And send my kisses thru the angels

Not wanting to close my eyes

Coz it'd be another day less that you'd stay.

It's sad for me that you would go

But I will look forward to that day

When I'd look closely into those eyes once more

Who knows? Maybe, just maybe -

Serendipity will get in our way.

*Originally written on 08 November 2010.

Holiday Leftovers

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 One more day and the new year will be here. This has always been the fastest round of the hands of the clock in the whole year. When it's already the 30th of December, I am always confused when exactly the New Year would come and before it'd sink in my mind that it will actually be on the next day - I'd start to realize that I do not have enough time anymore to prepare for it's coming.

I actually make myself more busy with what I'd leave behind with the year that will bid its goodbye.

As soon as the holiday season is in the air, I start planning what I have to do and how to accomplish them all in the most exciting and the busiest time of the year. For me, this is the time to let your loved-ones know how much you love them, the time to show your appreciation for those people who touched your life in a special  way, the time to express your gratitude for everyone who (in one way or another) have made you realize your dreams and wishes in life. And running down with the list of all that I have to do and all that I have to prepare, the days aren't enough to accomplish them all.

If the Three Wise Men have gold, frankincense and myrrh for our Lord Jesus Christ - I carry LOVE, APPRECIATION and GRATITUDE to give out to. They might look simple but I have to dig down deep to preserve its value. I prepare myself so I can give the gifts to the ones I love, to those I sincerely appreciate and grateful to.

I don't give gifts neither just for the sake of giving nor because it's the 'in' thing for the season. I give gifts because it shows my love, my appreciation and my gratitude to the receiver. It is carefully thought about, wanting to be sure that the receiver will be happy about it. But my gifts doesn't always come in glittering wraps for it is what's inside that counts. And it doesn't always comes in a box for it could also come in words written and thoughts well-expressed.

I have always wished that I may be able to tick everyone's name on my list before the year would end. My last option would be a quick phone call to a friend to whom I should say 'thank you' to before the big bang of the New Year. But there's always a few people I am leaving behind. Read that again because you've read it right. I wrote ".. I am leaving behind", and it is intentional. They're not the same people every year, but I always do not complete my list. 

It happens because I feel emotionally unresponsive due to uncertainties. There are words left to be said, words that would bring closure, words that could open possibilities but the sad part is having the "What if.." questions in my head. What if the words would be misunderstood or unaccepted? Ahhhhh. Leftovers.

I still have a few names to tick on my list and it's only a day before the New Year..

Commitment

I am attending the Simbang Gabi masses and days before it started, I planned to complete the 9 nights of it, that is, before the mass for Christmas. I mentioned 'night' because it is held at night in my part of the world. There is no pre-dawn masses here.

I 'planned' to complete the 9 nights of it..

Another way of saying it could be, 'I will attend the masses as much as my time would permit,' or 'I will attend the masses if I don't have other things to do or  if I don't have anywhere else to go.' From the sound of it, going for the Simbang Gabi mass would be my second option.

Now that Christmas is fast approaching and everyone is preoccupied with all the preparations for the get-together's and parties, it will be a little hard to manage time on weekends and after office hours as we need a lot of time to go shopping for new personal stuff and gifts. This only mean that it's a little hard to squeeze-in the Simbang Gabi masses in our daily schedule, much more to think that it ends a day before the big 'C' Day and that's also the time that our shopping must be complete.

Whoever needs to review time management?

Last night was was my 5th Simbang Gabi mass and I have not missed any just yet from Night 1, and there will only be 4 more nights to go. Chances are, I'd complete the 9 Simbang Gabi masses this year. But what if chances doesn't permit?

If I attended the previous 5 nights in a row, without being absent and without being late - what message do you think am I trying to send from here? 

My dear friends, I changed my plan of 'planning' to complete the 9 nights of it. I did not plan anymore after the 1st night. 

I made a commitment, instead. I committed myself to complete the 9 nights of it. I gave my commitment to God. I gave my commitment to the Lord.

The Simbang Gabi is now my priority, above anything else. I may have lack time to do my shopping and to complete the gifts for everyone in my list but I can do all that later. Though the nicey stores are closed at 10 in the evening and that's about the time the mass is ending, I need to find ways to squeeze-in shopping and everything else that needs to done or anything else that needs to be attended to. After all, I have to thank the Giver first for the blessings He bestow upon me before I splurge them out.

Commitment for me is not having second-thoughts,  no backing-outs and no changing of mind. It means standing to what I have committed with no matter what.  It is doing what I have committed to do without any excuses and not only when circumstances permits. It is a self-imposed obligation and a promise I made to myself that must not be broken.